Here's to new beginnings.

I've really become someone who doesn't often post things of substance via social media, but I also try my hardest to be my authentic self to every group I engage with, which is creating a bit of a conundrum in my life right now. I know so many people, and leave a little of myself everywhere I go, that when I have news... social media is the easiest way to announce it. With that in mind, I'll take a deep breath and spit it out. Something small happened today with huge amounts of meaning behind it. As Brene Brown would say, a neurological event took place. I signed an addendum to my lease to stay at my little home, with my little cat, just the two of us. Of course, our housemate Brooke is staying on, and we found someone to attempt to fill the shoes of Ms. Jo... but my partner of 2.5 years and I are separating. Such a small moment, with a normal size piece of paper put into focus the fact that I am getting back to basics. I am moving forward in my life, not as part of a duo but as numero uno. I am honoring the grief that comes with that, and holding space for the good memories while making meaning out of the hard ones. I've got some really good things coming for me in the future, one of the many being a looming graduation but today I'm making space for grief. For the raw pain that comes from watching your partner pack, and the unknowns, the singular decisions, the unsteadiness that is a part of walking this life singularly. I do know one thing however, it is thanks to so many of you my amazing family, and friends that I know I am never alone. I'm never stuck, and I am never without support. I'd also like to take a moment and share what I learned: Ain't no shame in things not working out, or changing your mind, or being wrong. Don't you dare worry about what others are going to say. You can love a human in more ways than we have words, and sometimes honoring them is doing the hard thing. I am more loved than I can even imagine. Sometimes the hardest decisions are the best ones, and it takes courage to face an uncertain future. I'm gonna wrap this up cause I have a few little buddies that are waiting on me for some playtime, but I shall leave ya'll with a picture of the joy in my life. Henry Dennis Parker, being my emotional support cat. Note the paw touching me as I write this..