Dancing Souls (Very old post)

So this was dated February of 2009 when I went back and was looking at old Facebook notes today. Not to toot my own horn, but I was a little blown away by it. Thought it was worth a share, but know that it is in no way relevant to anything current in my life.

         " We lived on dreams and promises we could never keep. All the while holding on to threads of what we once were, in order to survive in the company of the other's spirit.
          Someone said to me 'Its not the same, you made the decision to leave'. As if to say that makes the void any easier. Yes, I was the first to let go of the torn and weathered rope that hung like a noose around our lives. It was crushing us both in our attempt to be the other's solace. It was too late to patch it, we were already suffering, it was already gone. Just because I was the first to open my eyes, doesn't mean I don't lay here wishing he lay beside me. But then I realize its not him now that I miss. Its the us we used to be.
         Tonight I lay my head down in a place that is home for me as I travel my path, but was never big enough for the both of us. I am homesick for the summer nights when crickets sang in a room that was lightly kissed by a summer breeze. I am homesick for when we lay beside each other holding hands because it was too hot to touch. I am homesick for stars on a football field and apple pie ice cream. I grieve for an idea, for a time where we wondered what's next, not what-if.
          Memories paint portraits of our lives that are beautiful, but never quite accurate. I won't remember the bad after awhile which in time might make my decision even more heartbreaking. Know this: I didn't walk away. I let go. I had the strength and foresight within me to let our spirits take flight. Our wings are broken now, but they will heal in time and while tonight I'm sure we both feel broken and alone, we can never be. A part of our hearts lay beside each other always forever dancing among the stars."